Judging

As an entertainer you're always being judged on not so much your talent, but your genetics. Even if you're the best performer in the world, you could still not be the right look, height, body-type. You have to learn to not take this personally and move into whatever job fits you best.

As I've said so many times before, I'm short. It's limited me to only a few jobs, and it's hard to deal with but I've come to terms with it. I go go dance and love it. Many performers have told me I should keep trying, and maybe I should, but I'm really happy where I am so I don't really want to. I'm also not the most flexible dancers (though I am still pretty flexible), which will also limit you.

I can't change who I am.

As a go go dancer, I'm constantly being judged by people who don't know me. I mostly have come to terms with this, but it can still be difficult.

I have an appendix scar on my stomach and a few years ago it was pointed out to me that some people don't like it. Because of this I've become self-conscience about it, and come to dislike it. I've been using scar cream since Feb 2011, and also started to use Vitamin E oil. I also cover it with makeup now, but I still get people talking about it. maybe I'm just paranoid, but I don't think I am cause I see people pointing their stomachs and mouthing "scar" to each other. This makes me really sad.

Why is it that people judge me based on all my imperfections? I know I'm a beautiful woman, and a great dancer/performer, with many other luckily nice attributes, so why is it that we zone into the imperfections? How would these people feel if I picked them apart?! I wouldn't do that though. But since I'm on a pedestal I guess they feel like I'm not human anymore and don't have any feelings.

I love to interact with the crowd, but gotten a lot of mean looks, so usually end up just dancing for me. I find that when I have a very judgmental crowd, I start dancing for me and THEN they want my attention. It's a fact that my confidence comes out more that way, and it works, and then they seem to warm up. Sometimes they don't, most of the time they do.

I just wish they would always warm up to me. It's a hard job to be a performer, and I wish people wouldn't judge what they don't and can't understand. That's my rant for the day. Before you judge a performer, remember that they are a person with feelings and are putting their all into what they do. No one is perfect.